Happy New Year

Another year going bye, bye another starting anew, age +1 the pattern seems to be set in stone. The traditional "Happy New Year" implies that next year will be better or please let it be better, however is that true? No it is usually not. Why> because people are lazy and just wants to get by and reap benefits without doing anything, thus their year will suck. Can it be better? Well yes of course but it is up to you, yourself to make it awesome.

Dont wait for it to become awesome make it awesome!

To My Friend Diane

Well long story short my friend got a job so I wanted to write something for her so I did, this was the result.

To My Friend Diane

Hey it is me, well I'm sorry it’s not really written by hand however it is more a matter of convenience from my part (my writing really sucks and this goes faster). Well a promise is a promise and I pride myself with keeping them (other things are not that important). I’m very sorry that I could not give you this in person, that is the way it should be delivered right and of course in library. However this is not a traditional love letter (sorry Diane don’t be too sad), it would be kind of odd for me to proclaim my undying love to you, when you already have a boyfriend. Then again love comes in a wide variety of emotions: the love for your parents, siblings, a pet, boyfriends, girlfriends and of course friends. The later being the most suitable at this moment I will simply write from that perspective.

All in all whatever you will do with your life from now on will be entirely up to you. Is that not amazing, you have ultimate responsibility of your life. You are now writing the last page of university life and soon a new chapter will begin. Uncertainty is one of our greatest enemies; because it is uncomfortable we shy away from it, we rather do the same things we always done it is nature.

Sometimes it will be hard loneliness and other things will make you wish for something else, but you are a farmer and strong. Do not forget that even though half a world away, you are only as lonely as you make yourself. Home is not where you go or stay it is in your mind, all your friends and family will be with you because of the simple fact love. On the other hand people will definitely be jealous of you, hell I am one of them. However some people might hate on you because you will do lots of stuff that they will never have the opportunity to do. That is fine however never think that you do not deserve it because you do!

You are a very bright, intelligent, curious and with a warmth that is almost radiating, frankly how you can always be fun and so open to others? No one knows, but I do believe a lot of people gravitate to you because of your unique personality. I will miss, not being able to see you in the library or just talking to you, frankly I will miss you dearly. Even though we did not meet for a very long time I am very grateful to have met you, thank you.

I have no doubt that you will do amazing, but it is kind of a cliché to say that isn’t it? But I promise, in your case I truly mean it (^_^). Remember anything from our talks; like the one in the library coffee shop did you take some of it in? I hope you remember this. “It is your life and no one ells, not your parents, not to uphold their ideals, not your friends.”Don’t live anyone else’s dreams and don’t live thru someone ells, your dreams are yours.” Sad fact if we are lucky then we will only live 28 000 days, most people just want to get by, not dying.. But it is my conviction that those people when they lie on their death bed they are the ones who are afraid, screaming and crying. Diane live a full life and die with no regrets, learn grow and most importantly live.

Lastly to keep the theme of this letter and to sum it up: Diane my dear I love you…

Poker

Well now school actually started and man does it suck incompetent teachers from left to right..

My strange hand rash is gone though so that is a relief.

These days can be summed up with one word POKER, OMG I played so much...

Sucky day

For the last few days some strange rash appeared on my right hand first I thought to myself wtf is this? warts something strange some women gave to me?

Eitherway it spread and a swelling appeard on my hands I put some hydrocortison on it but there is no improvement to talk about.

Also I''m cleaning my friends apartment where I have been living for quite some time now because ge will come here tomorrow.

I had a amazing talk with one of my friends which really got me in a better mood so I am contempt.

Foxtrot Unicorn Charlie Kilo (or random rants)

So now I'm back in Korea (Gangnam) I'm using my friends apartment which is awesome in every possible way. And yes I already defiled it with a girl. we;; anyhow being back feels kind of strange and also lonely, I guess it is okay and I kind of anticipated it.

I als managed to register my courses but I was unlucky enough to get late classes so all my days will be late and as the cherry on the top it is to warm and humid..

Well this is the usually rant over and out.

Thinking things over

Well finals were done results came back I was awesome purely awesome, well at least I did a hefty job. Now Iäm actually back home in Sweden. i came back without telling anyone my parents were shocked that was funny. Anyhow coming back made me realize that Sweden is great, it's the place to be for a calm mind.

Well now I'm going back to Korea in 4 days or something and I'm feeling kind of blue actually. Well I guess it can't be helped can it.

Just wanted to let you people know who might be reading this that I am indeed still alive.

Weekend

So this past week I've been pretty busy with exams, practically I lived in the F#$king library so still now after a couple nights of good sleep I'm still messed up.The exams were horrible Economics Oh MyGod! Political science was okay, Global readings was fucked up wrote about the wrong thing, realized it 30 minutes in and didn't have time to change..

Well I wen to gimhae the travel down there was awesome. First I met my class mate on the buss to suwon started taling having alot of fun. Then when I took the train I was placed next to a older lady, started to tlak to her, turned out she's been studying English for 2 years and I was the first one who ever talkedc to her in English. Then when I change train again I met our Political Science teacher assistance. we talk about everything between heaven and earth it was awesome.

Nothing special happened except that I managed to make my ex-girlfriend cry.. We were eating I startbusting and joke with her insanely much. Struck by lightning she gets up and says I'm going now, I'm just laughing, sure that she will come back.. after about 5 minutes Istart to thuingk hmm maybe she won't come back. . I go out call her she just refuses to answer I send some texts, then call again, she answers hangs up this goes back and forth for a long time. Finally she agrees to be found we go to a cafe in there she starts to cry and with that kind of brakes my hearth I never made her cry.

I explain to her that I would never want her to be sad, because to me she means so much and I hope she will never be unhappy. Frankly at this point I was kind of angry because how could she not know that after all the time we spent together she should know, out of all the people in the world she should know how I felt about her. But it was kind of good to see because that means that I was very important to her.

Crash and thungder lightning

Sometimes things happen, unforseen, random, expected, happy or sad. Sometimes you don't really know where to turn. Well today I had one 미혜 well since this is strictly for me I will not give any other hint really. Either way, the expected thing happened, the funny thing is that you always knew that it would happen. But you are never ready for when it actually happens. I guess this is very human after all. 

Eitherway now I feel, a tad lost and a tad sad. 

Life

Well today was a day that was meant for thinking, nothing special happened, but I'm thinking if I did the right choice comming here or not. what will happen here, will it be to hard. 

Tomorrow it all starts we will see if it's easy or not.. 

Medical Checkup

Today I woe up early to go to a rouine medical checkup. Wrong today  wke up to lte to go to  medical checkup that sucked ass in every possible way..

First I get there I stand in line and the morons tell me to go out of the room to fill out a form.. Thank you for all your informaiton in English.. What do I look like korean? Well yeah... Fuck you very much. Eitherway I get in line again then they give me a cup... "Sir please give us a pee sample" the girl stares at me and I stare back. "Can you at least hold it for me?" are the words on my mind.. But I swallow my pride and go pee in the cup, somehow I manage to get some on my hand.. Absolutly great! I tr to dry my hand on the persons jacket infront of me, I feel better.
Then we meassure my height I haven't grown since high school, but the girl tells me you are 176 centimeteres tall.. No I'm not I'm 175 centimeters tall.. I let it slide because I want to be taller.
The we have blood preassure which spiked at 130 they told me it's within normal.
Then It was time for a bloodsample, I didn't like that I said Do you want my blood, you can't have it. The nurse looked surprised and just laughed, stuck the needle in my arm and took my blood, she's probbly a whore.. (I'm sorry, still shaken by the loss of my blood).  then nothing interesting happens until they want a X-ray of my stomache, the nurse calls my name as the only foeigner there and everone looks at me I feel like a celebrity, all the nurses giggle when thy hear my english, whatever  I say is like cocaine in kindergarten with 5 year old chldren. I'm a rockstar, then suddenly everything is over I'm showed out in the cold I'm normal I'm a nobody, just like you, everything fades to black. 

I'm in my room writing ths shit on my crappy ass computer. I'm late for work and it's all my fault..

Life cycles

Through⋅out  our life we enter different stages (cycles) we go from childhood to adulthood from innocence, to sinners. the fact of the matter is that we can never go back, it doesn't matter what we occupy ourselves with. No anti wrinkle cream will save you, whore! We are all condemmed to detoriate. Doesn't matter if we buy a  Ferrari or a ton of high class hookers, your dick will still become limp and useless, your hair will turn grey and most probably fall off.

So what can we do? Well we all handle it differently I am me and you are you, I don't have a clue how yu will handle it, but if you find something that works like excessive drinking give me a call, andof course if you're a hot girl then let's hook up!

Why I'm ramblng because I left my previous house, with all it's comforts, I'm more or less jobless because I moved to Suwon which is located 1.5hours from Seoul. Why? To start taking couses at university "Internationl Relations" yes that's my thing now. We had information meeting esterday everything was in bloody korean, how the fuck am I supposed to ndestand that?

Well it will probably be okay I shouldn't complain to much... Fuck you! I can do whatever I want to do here, if you don't like it then you don't need read.

I moved from most of my friends whom I dearly miss, and from all the girls I knew. but hopefully it will be alright!

Eiterway kids smell you later

Admission fee

Today I did the following:

Took my passport picture 10 USD
Paid my intuition fee 800 USD
Pai for my haircut 10 USD

In total I spent 820 USD it's too much.

Also I got a short term job for samsung that is awesome, wich meant I had to quit my other job that sucked..

On another note we moved 2 weeks ago so now I'm living near Ewha womens university!

Fuck all of you and here's too me!