Remember remember the 5th of March

This day will go down in history as one of the most fundamental nights not because of the experiences it brought but for the thing I did. I've never done it before and I've been very anxious to try it in my life and finally I did. Really interesting...

14th Aug Lords pf Acid

Spent the weekend trashing around in Gothenburg with some friends it was a really nice time with lots of laughs old faces and new faces. Saturday I had an appointment with one of my good old friends. well ion the apartment I'm greeted by the sight of my friends previous nights conquest a EMO girl skinny as a stick, scars on her arms (several which looks very fresh) and she seems to be out of this world passed out in a zombie state. After my friend leaves her at the tram stationhe comes back and we are ready to alter our reality.

Since its my first time he guides me through it I am smart enough not to ask anything that would be stupid. Anyway I put it in my mouth for a minute then swallow.. I feel nothing... 10 minutes passes still nothing.. 20 minutes WTF is this shit nothing... 30 Minutes here I'm starting to think what a fucking waste. However after 40 minutes we start to watch a doom version of The Simpson on you tube.. Somethings starts to happen.. In my mind I'm thinkg "Ah this is kind of nice..", my sight is apperantly doing things to me, time is slowing down, however no one else seems to be close to my stage, so I'm trying to be composed. after this we start an episode of The Simpsons the one where Homerr tries the super spicy chilly and goes mental! Right about here it kicks and OMG fuck we all start lauging fractals seems to appear.

2 hours in the shit goes in overdrive and I see fractals everywhere my skin, posters etcetera. Here time starts to skip a song feels like an hour! I begin to understand music, the music and I are one entity. I ve never seen such colors or seen pictures come to life.

It was awesome!

The only downside to it was that after everything was over the only thing that was left, was a hole or emptiness, nothing was a vibrant or interesting as before. Everything was annoying people, sounds, smell, heat.

Yesterday at 21.10

Yesterday at 21.10 HeeJung the person with the biggest heart, who always helped me in every endeavor passed away. May your soul find rest and peace at last, you will be forever missed!

Interesting things I

I would like to tell you about the most interesting things that have occurred to me during my time in Korea, given the time I've been here something had to come out of it? Man I cannot believe I've been here for 4 years this is my forth year in Korea how crazy is that?

The first episode happened to me when I went to Japan sometime in 2007:

It was actually my first trip to Japan and I was going to visit my girlfriend at that time, being all psyched up on youthful hormones, and the fetish about Japan in general I went. However my girlfriends mother who is a very considerate woman wanted me to bring some food to her daughter, including fermented vegetables (Kimchi), meat, all kinds of side dishes and other stuff. This I thought would be no problem.. However when I get there (Fukoka) and I go of the ferry I see all these signs, saying, if you have anything to declare, you need to do it or you might have to pay a fine. I look more closely and it stated that all the food that I had in a huge box was, a clear violation.. At this moment I was starting to sweat a lot and thinking oh my god what will happen if they catch me etcetera. Then I figured what is the chance of me getting caught in customs, it never happened before.. Now starting to feel a little better about myself I relax..

However of course I get caught in customs and the clerk asks me what do you have in the box, my heart is racing, my eyes look in all directions, I try to come up with a genius lie... and I anser I do not know... A half second later I want to kick myself for that answer, who in the world says "I do not know" no one that's who. but I try some more excuses my girlfriends mom, some clothes etcetera. The man talks to me for a few minutes which feels like hours and finally I am free to go. That was one of the most horrible experiences in my life.

The second episode also happened to me when I went to Japan sometime in 2007:

Well coming to Japan was an eye opener it was just as awesome as I always had imagined really, however it was also fricking expensive, so I did not want to spend my money, luckily for me my girlfriend lived there and I could stay in her dormitory (very small only for exchange students), with their consensus. However only problem was to get into the dormitory, because the university itself is a all girls university. So they have a lot of guards and security. However this was solved by wearing huge umbrellas sneaking in during the night, running, hiding, jumping gardens fences to avoid guards. it was like a Japanese anime but it was a thrill and definetly one of my most exciting memories.

The third episode happened to me in Korea spring/summer of 2008:

Since I was kind of skinny I started to work out nothing happened so I decided to change my diet and I went to mcdonalds 5 days a week to eat their bigmac set for lunch for 3000won, well I gained a lot of weight in less than 2 months I had gained 6 kilos.. I t was not pretty so to do smth about that me and my american friend found this diet on the internet, enter the Lemonade diet:

I have vacation, that's awesome... No it's not I'm doing this lemonade diet with my friend, which basically means I can not eat for 8-10 days(probably 8), yes no food just drinking lemonade. here's the receipe:
1 day
4 liters of water
5 Lemons
10 table spoons of maple syrup
1 spoon of cayenne pepper

Sounds interesting? it's not..
I endured it for 8 days and I lost much weight which I gained back very fast when I started to eat..

I will take care of the rest some other day and also if smth else comes to mind I will write it down!

Police Fraud

Living with bong in motel, getting kicked out of an apartment.

Happy New Year

Another year going bye, bye another starting anew, age +1 the pattern seems to be set in stone. The traditional "Happy New Year" implies that next year will be better or please let it be better, however is that true? No it is usually not. Why> because people are lazy and just wants to get by and reap benefits without doing anything, thus their year will suck. Can it be better? Well yes of course but it is up to you, yourself to make it awesome.

Dont wait for it to become awesome make it awesome!

To My Friend Diane

Well long story short my friend got a job so I wanted to write something for her so I did, this was the result.

To My Friend Diane

Hey it is me, well I'm sorry it’s not really written by hand however it is more a matter of convenience from my part (my writing really sucks and this goes faster). Well a promise is a promise and I pride myself with keeping them (other things are not that important). I’m very sorry that I could not give you this in person, that is the way it should be delivered right and of course in library. However this is not a traditional love letter (sorry Diane don’t be too sad), it would be kind of odd for me to proclaim my undying love to you, when you already have a boyfriend. Then again love comes in a wide variety of emotions: the love for your parents, siblings, a pet, boyfriends, girlfriends and of course friends. The later being the most suitable at this moment I will simply write from that perspective.

All in all whatever you will do with your life from now on will be entirely up to you. Is that not amazing, you have ultimate responsibility of your life. You are now writing the last page of university life and soon a new chapter will begin. Uncertainty is one of our greatest enemies; because it is uncomfortable we shy away from it, we rather do the same things we always done it is nature.

Sometimes it will be hard loneliness and other things will make you wish for something else, but you are a farmer and strong. Do not forget that even though half a world away, you are only as lonely as you make yourself. Home is not where you go or stay it is in your mind, all your friends and family will be with you because of the simple fact love. On the other hand people will definitely be jealous of you, hell I am one of them. However some people might hate on you because you will do lots of stuff that they will never have the opportunity to do. That is fine however never think that you do not deserve it because you do!

You are a very bright, intelligent, curious and with a warmth that is almost radiating, frankly how you can always be fun and so open to others? No one knows, but I do believe a lot of people gravitate to you because of your unique personality. I will miss, not being able to see you in the library or just talking to you, frankly I will miss you dearly. Even though we did not meet for a very long time I am very grateful to have met you, thank you.

I have no doubt that you will do amazing, but it is kind of a cliché to say that isn’t it? But I promise, in your case I truly mean it (^_^). Remember anything from our talks; like the one in the library coffee shop did you take some of it in? I hope you remember this. “It is your life and no one ells, not your parents, not to uphold their ideals, not your friends.”Don’t live anyone else’s dreams and don’t live thru someone ells, your dreams are yours.” Sad fact if we are lucky then we will only live 28 000 days, most people just want to get by, not dying.. But it is my conviction that those people when they lie on their death bed they are the ones who are afraid, screaming and crying. Diane live a full life and die with no regrets, learn grow and most importantly live.

Lastly to keep the theme of this letter and to sum it up: Diane my dear I love you…

Poker

Well now school actually started and man does it suck incompetent teachers from left to right..

My strange hand rash is gone though so that is a relief.

These days can be summed up with one word POKER, OMG I played so much...

Sucky day

For the last few days some strange rash appeared on my right hand first I thought to myself wtf is this? warts something strange some women gave to me?

Eitherway it spread and a swelling appeard on my hands I put some hydrocortison on it but there is no improvement to talk about.

Also I''m cleaning my friends apartment where I have been living for quite some time now because ge will come here tomorrow.

I had a amazing talk with one of my friends which really got me in a better mood so I am contempt.

Foxtrot Unicorn Charlie Kilo (or random rants)

So now I'm back in Korea (Gangnam) I'm using my friends apartment which is awesome in every possible way. And yes I already defiled it with a girl. we;; anyhow being back feels kind of strange and also lonely, I guess it is okay and I kind of anticipated it.

I als managed to register my courses but I was unlucky enough to get late classes so all my days will be late and as the cherry on the top it is to warm and humid..

Well this is the usually rant over and out.

Thinking things over

Well finals were done results came back I was awesome purely awesome, well at least I did a hefty job. Now Iäm actually back home in Sweden. i came back without telling anyone my parents were shocked that was funny. Anyhow coming back made me realize that Sweden is great, it's the place to be for a calm mind.

Well now I'm going back to Korea in 4 days or something and I'm feeling kind of blue actually. Well I guess it can't be helped can it.

Just wanted to let you people know who might be reading this that I am indeed still alive.

Weekend

So this past week I've been pretty busy with exams, practically I lived in the F#$king library so still now after a couple nights of good sleep I'm still messed up.The exams were horrible Economics Oh MyGod! Political science was okay, Global readings was fucked up wrote about the wrong thing, realized it 30 minutes in and didn't have time to change..

Well I wen to gimhae the travel down there was awesome. First I met my class mate on the buss to suwon started taling having alot of fun. Then when I took the train I was placed next to a older lady, started to tlak to her, turned out she's been studying English for 2 years and I was the first one who ever talkedc to her in English. Then when I change train again I met our Political Science teacher assistance. we talk about everything between heaven and earth it was awesome.

Nothing special happened except that I managed to make my ex-girlfriend cry.. We were eating I startbusting and joke with her insanely much. Struck by lightning she gets up and says I'm going now, I'm just laughing, sure that she will come back.. after about 5 minutes Istart to thuingk hmm maybe she won't come back. . I go out call her she just refuses to answer I send some texts, then call again, she answers hangs up this goes back and forth for a long time. Finally she agrees to be found we go to a cafe in there she starts to cry and with that kind of brakes my hearth I never made her cry.

I explain to her that I would never want her to be sad, because to me she means so much and I hope she will never be unhappy. Frankly at this point I was kind of angry because how could she not know that after all the time we spent together she should know, out of all the people in the world she should know how I felt about her. But it was kind of good to see because that means that I was very important to her.

Crash and thungder lightning

Sometimes things happen, unforseen, random, expected, happy or sad. Sometimes you don't really know where to turn. Well today I had one 미혜 well since this is strictly for me I will not give any other hint really. Either way, the expected thing happened, the funny thing is that you always knew that it would happen. But you are never ready for when it actually happens. I guess this is very human after all. 

Eitherway now I feel, a tad lost and a tad sad. 

Life

Well today was a day that was meant for thinking, nothing special happened, but I'm thinking if I did the right choice comming here or not. what will happen here, will it be to hard. 

Tomorrow it all starts we will see if it's easy or not.. 

Medical Checkup

Today I woe up early to go to a rouine medical checkup. Wrong today  wke up to lte to go to  medical checkup that sucked ass in every possible way..

First I get there I stand in line and the morons tell me to go out of the room to fill out a form.. Thank you for all your informaiton in English.. What do I look like korean? Well yeah... Fuck you very much. Eitherway I get in line again then they give me a cup... "Sir please give us a pee sample" the girl stares at me and I stare back. "Can you at least hold it for me?" are the words on my mind.. But I swallow my pride and go pee in the cup, somehow I manage to get some on my hand.. Absolutly great! I tr to dry my hand on the persons jacket infront of me, I feel better.
Then we meassure my height I haven't grown since high school, but the girl tells me you are 176 centimeteres tall.. No I'm not I'm 175 centimeters tall.. I let it slide because I want to be taller.
The we have blood preassure which spiked at 130 they told me it's within normal.
Then It was time for a bloodsample, I didn't like that I said Do you want my blood, you can't have it. The nurse looked surprised and just laughed, stuck the needle in my arm and took my blood, she's probbly a whore.. (I'm sorry, still shaken by the loss of my blood).  then nothing interesting happens until they want a X-ray of my stomache, the nurse calls my name as the only foeigner there and everone looks at me I feel like a celebrity, all the nurses giggle when thy hear my english, whatever  I say is like cocaine in kindergarten with 5 year old chldren. I'm a rockstar, then suddenly everything is over I'm showed out in the cold I'm normal I'm a nobody, just like you, everything fades to black. 

I'm in my room writing ths shit on my crappy ass computer. I'm late for work and it's all my fault..

Life cycles

Through⋅out  our life we enter different stages (cycles) we go from childhood to adulthood from innocence, to sinners. the fact of the matter is that we can never go back, it doesn't matter what we occupy ourselves with. No anti wrinkle cream will save you, whore! We are all condemmed to detoriate. Doesn't matter if we buy a  Ferrari or a ton of high class hookers, your dick will still become limp and useless, your hair will turn grey and most probably fall off.

So what can we do? Well we all handle it differently I am me and you are you, I don't have a clue how yu will handle it, but if you find something that works like excessive drinking give me a call, andof course if you're a hot girl then let's hook up!

Why I'm ramblng because I left my previous house, with all it's comforts, I'm more or less jobless because I moved to Suwon which is located 1.5hours from Seoul. Why? To start taking couses at university "Internationl Relations" yes that's my thing now. We had information meeting esterday everything was in bloody korean, how the fuck am I supposed to ndestand that?

Well it will probably be okay I shouldn't complain to much... Fuck you! I can do whatever I want to do here, if you don't like it then you don't need read.

I moved from most of my friends whom I dearly miss, and from all the girls I knew. but hopefully it will be alright!

Eiterway kids smell you later

Admission fee

Today I did the following:

Took my passport picture 10 USD
Paid my intuition fee 800 USD
Pai for my haircut 10 USD

In total I spent 820 USD it's too much.

Also I got a short term job for samsung that is awesome, wich meant I had to quit my other job that sucked..

On another note we moved 2 weeks ago so now I'm living near Ewha womens university!

Fuck all of you and here's too me!

So far

Well the last days I've been thinking that the company I worked for one day wanted to screw me over.. "Those whores" either way I was thinking on calling the police, but I'm not sure I'm working legaly so it wasn't that good of a idea..

Also I worked for a TV channel here in korea I translated some stuff from Swedish (actually it was norweigen) to English it was awesome it took 1 minute too do and I got 20 dollars for it..

Another thing in the air is that I might get a teaching job at a corporate company teaching English ot old geezers. I have to wear a suit and look proper.. That would mean that I have to buy my whole outfit.. that sucks..

Oh my Jesus

Well these days I'm working with kids. I love kids they are always dead honest, and they don't want too do their homework, hteir tension span is less than a fricking minute, they scream run around, hit eachother (that might be a good thing). Basicly they act like ass holes and they get away with it.. I hate kids..

One funny thing was that my employer told me I shit you not "If they are repeatedly bad you can hit them with a stick, but you shouldn't leave any marks".

Random

.... After reading what you wrote I now decided you are now one of my best friends or girls I would like to hook up with.

What you are doing for a living is something most of us can only dream about, or we just say: "Bah how can you live like that, you need stability you need to grow up" Most of us are jealous, people are really ugly at times, too each and another. Hell I'm even jealous, and I don't usually admit (when I'm sober).

Wow you write about culture, things you see and touch, is there anything else you should write about? For me I love myself and what I do(most of the time) to be able to write about my life and experiences, that would be equally too spend the night with Lee Hyori. What you are writing is influencing peoples lives that is amazing (and kind of sexy).

Maybe you are a animal, but hey humans are animals to!

At the moment I'm trying to learn Korean because of the simple fact that I want to. I've always had an interest in culture, growing up in Sweden all you ever hear about is China this Japan that, also because of my Korean heritage I've always longed to return to Korea. So here I am. I'm living in Hongdae, I'm just assuming you know where it is? ^^
I teach English from time too times to get some money. I love to do things I've never done before, or just things that are different. Don't get me wrong I love getting smashed with alcohol and eating food going too the movies, etc. But I want to see as much as possible and do other things.

If you go to the coffee shop you will find couples playing with their cell phones or just sleeping. I mean girl that sucks, you go there to sleep? Then you should probably do something else, at least go and rent a motel for 3-4 hours. People in general are to bored in Korea... what do you think?

I try to meet as many people as I can but these days I'm in a runt. Most of my friends are really busy.

So?

So what happened I chickened out on the lemonade diet day 8. let me tell you it was F">? hard, I'm never doing that again period.. Also I meet my ex girlfreind it actually felt kind of okay.

Also I have problems with 3 girls now, two who wants to meet me to much.. Also today this girl bought me a necklace armband and a watch.. the watch is awesome by the way.. 

I'm also struggling with level 4 korean it's f killing me I dont like it at all.. 

peace out!