Remember remember the 5th of March

This day will go down in history as one of the most fundamental nights not because of the experiences it brought but for the thing I did. I've never done it before and I've been very anxious to try it in my life and finally I did. Really interesting...

14th Aug Lords pf Acid

Spent the weekend trashing around in Gothenburg with some friends it was a really nice time with lots of laughs old faces and new faces. Saturday I had an appointment with one of my good old friends. well ion the apartment I'm greeted by the sight of my friends previous nights conquest a EMO girl skinny as a stick, scars on her arms (several which looks very fresh) and she seems to be out of this world passed out in a zombie state. After my friend leaves her at the tram stationhe comes back and we are ready to alter our reality.

Since its my first time he guides me through it I am smart enough not to ask anything that would be stupid. Anyway I put it in my mouth for a minute then swallow.. I feel nothing... 10 minutes passes still nothing.. 20 minutes WTF is this shit nothing... 30 Minutes here I'm starting to think what a fucking waste. However after 40 minutes we start to watch a doom version of The Simpson on you tube.. Somethings starts to happen.. In my mind I'm thinkg "Ah this is kind of nice..", my sight is apperantly doing things to me, time is slowing down, however no one else seems to be close to my stage, so I'm trying to be composed. after this we start an episode of The Simpsons the one where Homerr tries the super spicy chilly and goes mental! Right about here it kicks and OMG fuck we all start lauging fractals seems to appear.

2 hours in the shit goes in overdrive and I see fractals everywhere my skin, posters etcetera. Here time starts to skip a song feels like an hour! I begin to understand music, the music and I are one entity. I ve never seen such colors or seen pictures come to life.

It was awesome!

The only downside to it was that after everything was over the only thing that was left, was a hole or emptiness, nothing was a vibrant or interesting as before. Everything was annoying people, sounds, smell, heat.

Yesterday at 21.10

Yesterday at 21.10 HeeJung the person with the biggest heart, who always helped me in every endeavor passed away. May your soul find rest and peace at last, you will be forever missed!

Interesting things I

I would like to tell you about the most interesting things that have occurred to me during my time in Korea, given the time I've been here something had to come out of it? Man I cannot believe I've been here for 4 years this is my forth year in Korea how crazy is that?

The first episode happened to me when I went to Japan sometime in 2007:

It was actually my first trip to Japan and I was going to visit my girlfriend at that time, being all psyched up on youthful hormones, and the fetish about Japan in general I went. However my girlfriends mother who is a very considerate woman wanted me to bring some food to her daughter, including fermented vegetables (Kimchi), meat, all kinds of side dishes and other stuff. This I thought would be no problem.. However when I get there (Fukoka) and I go of the ferry I see all these signs, saying, if you have anything to declare, you need to do it or you might have to pay a fine. I look more closely and it stated that all the food that I had in a huge box was, a clear violation.. At this moment I was starting to sweat a lot and thinking oh my god what will happen if they catch me etcetera. Then I figured what is the chance of me getting caught in customs, it never happened before.. Now starting to feel a little better about myself I relax..

However of course I get caught in customs and the clerk asks me what do you have in the box, my heart is racing, my eyes look in all directions, I try to come up with a genius lie... and I anser I do not know... A half second later I want to kick myself for that answer, who in the world says "I do not know" no one that's who. but I try some more excuses my girlfriends mom, some clothes etcetera. The man talks to me for a few minutes which feels like hours and finally I am free to go. That was one of the most horrible experiences in my life.

The second episode also happened to me when I went to Japan sometime in 2007:

Well coming to Japan was an eye opener it was just as awesome as I always had imagined really, however it was also fricking expensive, so I did not want to spend my money, luckily for me my girlfriend lived there and I could stay in her dormitory (very small only for exchange students), with their consensus. However only problem was to get into the dormitory, because the university itself is a all girls university. So they have a lot of guards and security. However this was solved by wearing huge umbrellas sneaking in during the night, running, hiding, jumping gardens fences to avoid guards. it was like a Japanese anime but it was a thrill and definetly one of my most exciting memories.

The third episode happened to me in Korea spring/summer of 2008:

Since I was kind of skinny I started to work out nothing happened so I decided to change my diet and I went to mcdonalds 5 days a week to eat their bigmac set for lunch for 3000won, well I gained a lot of weight in less than 2 months I had gained 6 kilos.. I t was not pretty so to do smth about that me and my american friend found this diet on the internet, enter the Lemonade diet:

I have vacation, that's awesome... No it's not I'm doing this lemonade diet with my friend, which basically means I can not eat for 8-10 days(probably 8), yes no food just drinking lemonade. here's the receipe:
1 day
4 liters of water
5 Lemons
10 table spoons of maple syrup
1 spoon of cayenne pepper

Sounds interesting? it's not..
I endured it for 8 days and I lost much weight which I gained back very fast when I started to eat..

I will take care of the rest some other day and also if smth else comes to mind I will write it down!

Police Fraud

Living with bong in motel, getting kicked out of an apartment.

Happy New Year

Another year going bye, bye another starting anew, age +1 the pattern seems to be set in stone. The traditional "Happy New Year" implies that next year will be better or please let it be better, however is that true? No it is usually not. Why> because people are lazy and just wants to get by and reap benefits without doing anything, thus their year will suck. Can it be better? Well yes of course but it is up to you, yourself to make it awesome.

Dont wait for it to become awesome make it awesome!

To My Friend Diane

Well long story short my friend got a job so I wanted to write something for her so I did, this was the result.

To My Friend Diane

Hey it is me, well I'm sorry it’s not really written by hand however it is more a matter of convenience from my part (my writing really sucks and this goes faster). Well a promise is a promise and I pride myself with keeping them (other things are not that important). I’m very sorry that I could not give you this in person, that is the way it should be delivered right and of course in library. However this is not a traditional love letter (sorry Diane don’t be too sad), it would be kind of odd for me to proclaim my undying love to you, when you already have a boyfriend. Then again love comes in a wide variety of emotions: the love for your parents, siblings, a pet, boyfriends, girlfriends and of course friends. The later being the most suitable at this moment I will simply write from that perspective.

All in all whatever you will do with your life from now on will be entirely up to you. Is that not amazing, you have ultimate responsibility of your life. You are now writing the last page of university life and soon a new chapter will begin. Uncertainty is one of our greatest enemies; because it is uncomfortable we shy away from it, we rather do the same things we always done it is nature.

Sometimes it will be hard loneliness and other things will make you wish for something else, but you are a farmer and strong. Do not forget that even though half a world away, you are only as lonely as you make yourself. Home is not where you go or stay it is in your mind, all your friends and family will be with you because of the simple fact love. On the other hand people will definitely be jealous of you, hell I am one of them. However some people might hate on you because you will do lots of stuff that they will never have the opportunity to do. That is fine however never think that you do not deserve it because you do!

You are a very bright, intelligent, curious and with a warmth that is almost radiating, frankly how you can always be fun and so open to others? No one knows, but I do believe a lot of people gravitate to you because of your unique personality. I will miss, not being able to see you in the library or just talking to you, frankly I will miss you dearly. Even though we did not meet for a very long time I am very grateful to have met you, thank you.

I have no doubt that you will do amazing, but it is kind of a cliché to say that isn’t it? But I promise, in your case I truly mean it (^_^). Remember anything from our talks; like the one in the library coffee shop did you take some of it in? I hope you remember this. “It is your life and no one ells, not your parents, not to uphold their ideals, not your friends.”Don’t live anyone else’s dreams and don’t live thru someone ells, your dreams are yours.” Sad fact if we are lucky then we will only live 28 000 days, most people just want to get by, not dying.. But it is my conviction that those people when they lie on their death bed they are the ones who are afraid, screaming and crying. Diane live a full life and die with no regrets, learn grow and most importantly live.

Lastly to keep the theme of this letter and to sum it up: Diane my dear I love you…

Poker

Well now school actually started and man does it suck incompetent teachers from left to right..

My strange hand rash is gone though so that is a relief.

These days can be summed up with one word POKER, OMG I played so much...